❝ I hope my daughter never feels this way at night. ❞

❝ If you can see a future without me and that doesn’t break your heart then we’re not doing what I thought we were doing here. ❞

❝ Love doesn’t feel real
after the initial shock of heartbreak
every new encounter starts to have a reason:
I am interested in you because you
give me an excuse to look the other way
when my ex walks by
I am interested in you because you
are a promise to at least one warm night
I am interested in you because I don’t
know how to be okay with being alone.

Adjusting to this foreign empty bed
is scary because there is so much room and
I need to fill it with bodies
I need to cover my gashes and wounds
I need bandages to stop the blood from flowing
and I am sorry that I tried to love you
and instead only turned you into the aftertaste
of another I am sorry that I don’t know
if what we have is fire or just the shadow that it casts
I am sorry that I can’t give you the heart that I had.

Because it seems like I still can’t find mine
and I am using you to make up for it. ❞